I woke up to the sound of laughter, people in the hallways and outside making noises, perhaps getting ready for a party. And there I was in my dorm room.

Today I went to the library to study for chemistry because of my not so well score on the last midterm. Next thing I knew I hear an indian man saying loudly "EXCUSE ME, THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED." Apparently I had fallen asleep. I noticed people that were once around me were all gone. Making my way out to the exit was kind of scary because it was a  big library, there was no one in sight, all the lights were pretty much off, and I was on the 4th floor.

While at the library I ran into a long lost friend, a 3rd year. She's always been pretty nice person but, It seems to me like she has become a tad wilder, even though she does not think so. I think its because she joined a social fraternity. She asked me if I was going to any parties today. I said, "no". The she goes "have you been to any parties yet?" Then I continue "no". She goes " Whatt?!!! Why?!". I go "I'm so scared!" She goes "Noo,  you have to go to parties, I'll bring to you to one tonight!". And of course, I declined.

Idk why, but I'm really scared of partying. I don't think of the word "fun" at all. I think of the word "scared". I think of crazy drunk people. I guess its mainly got to do with the fact that I'm a naive freshman. Throughout my life people keep telling me that I'm too innocent. I'm someone that people can just read right off the bat when they meet me, easy to manipulate/trick.  Knowing myself, it makes it hard for me to put myself out there because I know that I'm too trusting of other people, which is of course, not necessarily a good thing. sighh Why must I be so naive? But maybe not putting myself out there is part of the problem. Maybe I need to see more of what is out there...

So today was the B Here Performance, part of the campaign to raise awareness for Hepatitis B on the asian american community. Pretty great campaign I think, but I think the majoirty of the performers were more interested in raising their popularity, instead of the sickness. It was pretty great I guess. David Choi, Kaba modern, kevjumba, happyslip, that Paul guy that plays the violin and sings, this 14 yr old singer that was on americas got talent, and this other singer girl. I just forgot some of their names, and am too lazy to search it up haha.The performances were pretty awesome, not to mention free! Tran was going to leave early but stayed haha!